euphoria evaporation

since the wood floor went in a few weeks ago, my love for this house has been rekindled. the other day on my way to bed i felt real JOY while walking in my bare feet down the wooden hallway. it represents such a big chunk of what i've wanted for this house for SO LONG, that i'm thrilled to have finally gotten it done. that's not being materialistic right? ok, it is, but whatever, i'm shallow like that. don't judge. i mean, we've just had so many unexpected issues/expenses with this house that sometimes i lose the vision (and the finances) of how great it's going to be. and it really will be great. so the wood floor enduced euphoria has been a nice welcomed change for me because it's helped me to see this home's potential once again which translates into motivation to pull out those dang paint clothes again and get a few more things done.

so tonight, when rich came to bed and informed me that we have another LEAK -this time, in the dining room ceiling, i found out what it's like to have euphoria physically drain out the tips of my toes and be replaced with anxiety and dread. in an instant i pictured myself sprinting to the front yard, frantically digging a small hole and slamming a "for sale" sign down into as fast as i could.it happened that quickly. maybe this seems like an over-reaction, ok, it IS an over-reaction, but can you blame me? i'm so done with the dang leaky pipes. we REALLY thought that the leaky pipe issues were behind us. shouldn't it be that if you write a ginormous check to fix a problem that it can be considered resolved, as in, you no longer have to worry about it? is this some kind of humbling exercise because i felt joy over the wood floors and so therefore could be considered shallow and materialistic?

so tomorrow a guy will come and cut a big hole in the ceiling and deliver some kind of at least $1,000 diagnosis. but for now, i've decided that the word LEAK is my new cuss. i'm thinking of incorporating into my daily speaking, as in, "no LEAKing tv until your LEAKing homework is done!" or, "i don't know what to LEAKing fix for dinner", or "where in the LEAK are my LEAKing car keys?" what do you think? this could be huge, like the next mormon swear or something. if it starts to catch on, remember, you heard it here first.