all about moi

i was tagged by Nicki –
i am blogging when I should be sleeping – but I’m always doing tons of things when I should be sleeping.

i think non-stop, especially when I’m trying to fall asleep, my wheels are always turning, it’s so frustrating!
i know that God lives and loves me.
i want to be a good wife and mother, to be organized in my homemaking responsibilities, and to some day go to hawaii.
i have a great life, sometimes I have to pinch myself. corny but true.

i dislike two year old melt downs, jr. high homework, waking up too early and people who are mean to their kids in public.
i miss my high school body that I thought was so fat! ha!
i fear for the well-being of our nation in general.

i feel like i could just stay home in my pjs forever.

i hear my mother's voice giving my advise in my head sometimes.

i smell the gardenia wall flower that I recently plugged in from b&bw – I always have a hard time choosing the sent, I love them ALL!
i crave my husband’s squeeze. if I can make it through to the end of this project, it will be a miracle.
i cry more easily than I wish. my most embarassing moment (hour) ever, was taylor's baptism when i could just not pull it together and even had to give a talk! i'm such a boob!

i usually have a really messy office.

i search for my car keys at least once every day. I almost always find them in my purse – the second or third time I look there.

i wonder what it would be like to have a cleaning lady, what it would be like to sleep through the night, what I should fix for dinner and why recycling is not mandatory? it seems like such a no-brainer thing to do.

i regret not holding the babies more. lucky I knew better with ethan and spent the first year of his life holding him non-stop but it still doesn't seem like enough.
i love so many things – lately, girlfriends and sister in laws. and all the love, creativity, therapy and birthday presents that come with them!
i care about the details – “love is in the details” is one of my favorite quotes so it’s painful to do things half way.
i worry about the future, the state of our country, the environment, the choices my kids will make. but I don’t know that “worry” is the right word, “concerned” I guess is more like it, I’m not really a big worrier. ok, and earthquakes, i worry about an earthquake a little too much.

i am not going to finish all the things on my to-do list - ever. I’m not an under-achiever, my to-do lists are just never realistic. there are just aren’t enough hours of the day and I don’t know how to make smaller lists.
i remember when my kids were all little enough to buy them matching pj’s for Christmas eve. this maybe also belongs in the “I miss” sentence.i believe that people are generally good and well-intentioned, that hurt is always underneath anger and that jack black is one of the funniest men of all time!
i dance with my kids in the kitchen to my cd of “big band” music. my favorite is “fly me to the moon” by frank sinatra – my kids know all the words!
i don't always think before I speak.
i argue only when I feel passionately about something – I try to avoid arguing but that doesn’t always work.
i write all kinds of things: thank you notes, to-do lists, grocery lists, journal entries, my planner, etc.

i win when i think of a comprimise with spencer that works.

i lose my thoughts in mid-sentence sometimes, it’s so embarassing.

i wish I had a magic wand to re-do my old house, re-do my landscaping, and re-do my body…just kidding….mostly.
i listen to the song from “little einstein’s” at least once a day.
i don't understand loading the dishwasher but not wiping down the counters and calling the kitchen clean, why wanting one more tiny little baby is such a big deal, and road rage, I mean seriously people, can’t we all just get along?
i can usually be found at home or behind the wheel of my toyota sienna driving one or more teenagers and a toddler some place and running five minutes late to get there.

i am scared of dark parking lots at night, child predators, and being widowed.

i need a tummy tuck – anyone know any good plastic surgeons?

i forget anything that isn’t written down, and even then there’s no guarantee.
i am happy that tomorrow is sunday and rich will more than likely be home.

thanks nicki, that was a fun list to think through, i'm more messed up that i thought! i tag the blogger moms.